budak2 zaman sekarang..ui

Assalamualaikum readersss... ha ... isu kali ni idoklah hangat mane.. tp...dgn niat utk meluahkan tanpa menyebut mana2 pihak..ingin saya nyatakan ketidak selesaan saya melihat kanak2 lingkungan umr 10-17 thun yg bercinta kemain..kalah suami isteri bercinta...

ada gak yg drjah2 dah bercouple2...okay... first, siapa lah sy untuk tegur budak2 ni..lgi protes ada lah kan.. yg saya agak geli bila ada yg 'papa' 'mama'.. aduhhh... duit dating pun minta mak ayah masing2..pun ada hati nk jd 'papa' 'mama'? ..

xsalah ada rasa syg pada seseorang.. tp kalau dah budak2 tu...jadi lah budak2...jgnlah cepat sgt nk dewasa..takut sy lihatnya adik2... belajar pun entah ke mana..

bila saya tnya...' ni ada boipren ni, blajo cmne? 55/1 pun xthu nak jwp'...' ala..kite syg dia...dia jauh..kite setia'..bila sy tnye umur boipren dia bape..'same dgn kite..darjah 4'... ohhh...drjah 4... ?!! pun bercouple... bersyg2 mcm org tua.. geli saya ..tp..kids will always be kids..ade lah bnda yg sy nasihat dia tu...

dasyat dok budak2 skrg? ... sy tidak lah kata zaman kanak2 sy xde sy suka pada org..tp seingat saya..zaman sy dlu...malu2 lgi... kalau suka sgt pon..men hantor2 surat...mcm2 gaya bentuk surat dah..siap berbedak2...nk bg wangi...bila zaman up ckit..gne pen yg wangi...hehe..kelakar...tp xdlah smpai nk jmpa peluk cium seawal usia tu..tu semua budaya org barat... kita ni asia.. beradab ckit...lebih2 lgi bg yg melayu... haish.. ghiso sy tgk betapa advance nya pemikiran budak2 bab2 bercouple ni smue..bila sy tnya ttg blaja...sengeh2 kerang busuk...ish2...

niat sy wat pos ni...xnak burukkan mana2..sy just type everything out ni spontan dan umum sgt... ini yg sy nmpk budak2 skrg yg rasa diri lebih matang dari org2 yg lagi tua dri mereka...

igt2 lah kawan2...firasat or instinct parents kita, especially ibu sgt lah kuat... jgn lah tpu ibu2 anda... kalau dia mcm xberkenan je dgn boipren or gerlpren awok tu.. ade lah sebabnya yg tidak kena dgn 'kawan' awok tu...

buatlah semua benda or perkara dgn izin n restu ibu ayah kita... insyaAllah bahagia kita... kita tak takot2 pon nnt..best kan? hehe.. okay lah... takat ni je lah luahan jiwa... bye :)

Bertunang dengan siapa cik putri?

Assalamualaikum... :)

Lama sudah saya tidak update blog ni.. ptg tadi ada lab..lama nye xmasuk lab... but i like it here.. best sngt smbung belajar.. saya baru sedar saya suka sangat belajar.. kalau saya tak puas hati mesti saya cari..alhamdulillah sejak dah masuk degree ni..makin rajin..mungkin baru nampak betapa pentingnya ilmu tu.. dah tua baru sedar..hehe...anyway, today a friend of mine yang lama ya amat tidak saya contact , menghubungi saya.. agak terkejut mana dia tahu num baru saya..but its ok ..no biggie gtu... she found out that im getting engaged soon... saya tak sangka la pulak dah kecoh... tp persoalan dia pada saya adalah... siapa orgnya? mana gambarnya?

kawan2 ..bukan saya tidak mahu kenalkan anda semua dgn bakal tunang saya...tp, just wait and see... bila kami nikah nanti akan lah sy heboh2kan siapa gerangan nya.. xgtu ?

saya bukannya apa..bukan nya sy xde gambar berdua dgn dia.. ade..cuma sy xnak pamerkan pada umum.. hal ini kerana sy segan...siapa yg ternampak.. ternampak lah.. siapa yg tidak, sy belum lagi rasa nk kngsi pic kami.. segan...

saya diberi nasihat utk jaga diri and nama keluarga.. dan itu sbb sy harus kawal gambar2 sy.. kat facebook pun mmg private sume.. insyaAllah ..ada berita baik, saya tak akan keberatan utk war2kan... semua dengan izin Allah...

Saya bersyukur... Allah telah memberi saya pelbagai di dunia ini.. dan dgn kelebihan itu, akan saya jaga semuanya..utk keluarga serta bakal suami..

kisah cinta saya yang lepas banyak ajar saya erti hidup.. jujurlah.. memang saya membesar dengan penuh kasih sayang serta cinta..cuma saya tidak pandai mengawal sebutan 'aku cinta padamu' tu... menyesal pun xde guna..tiada pun istilah first love dalam kamus hdup saya... selalu sangat menyebutnya kan..dush

now i am happy ^_^ alhamdulillah... semoga rasa happy serta semangat yg positive ini sentiasa ade utk saya.. dengan itu, saya akan lebih semangat utk melalui2 liku2 hidup dengan lebih tenang...

Pada kawan2 saya yang sedang bercinta..igt, memang seronok bercinta, tp kalau bukan kerana Allah swt..kita xkan dapat rasakan itu semua..kalau bukan kerana pengorbanan Nabi Muhammad saw..tidak lah kita boleh hidup seperti sekarang.. cintailah Allah swt lebih dari kita mencintai manusia... kasihlah Rasulullah lebih dari kita kasihkan manusia.. percayalah... anda akan tahu apa erti cinta berbalas ^_^.. alhamdulillah...

Semoga seronok and happy selalu readers :)

Why

 i dont understand why some people wear scarf or hijab.. are they trying to cover their serabut hair or what? once you wear, do wear it accordingly.. not hentam2.. if thats what youre intended to do.. stop it.. wear it when u feel ready... dont embarrass urself ... when i cakap jgn memalukan diri sendiri tu..its because..*people are talking about u.. *

Serious i am almost at a breaking point

Some people just don't understand or know when to stop... Their point of view of how my life is now is totally different..as if they never tried to understand me... I am done being good..being nice! i sacrificed everything for them, all they know is complaining about stuff.. When i tried putting myself or trying to be on their side of the story, they laughed or even underestimated me.. i hate that. I spent 5 years of my life motivating people... but what i got was unbearable.. i am just human lah! I have my own savings... i saved for me and me alone... but, when some people are in need of my money..i dont hesitate to just lend or even give the money.. i seriously dont care... but when i am at a point where i really a certain amount of cash.. they just felt as if i am the only one who uses their money... its like i have to beg for it.. i am truly pissed of okay... i tried explaining my situation.. but they just wont listen... i will never ask for something i dont need... i will never tend to make other people suffer because of me.. and that is why i rather sacrifice my time for the benefits of other.. and what did i get back in return?

Seriously.. i promised my self before.. that i'll study hard and get a better job in the future.. by that time.. i will never disturb anyone or burdened anyone.. thats a promise i tend to keep...

my future fiance is a nice guy.. i am not saying this because he's my future husband , i am saying this because thats a fact... despite of what some people thought of him ..claiming that he's not husband material yet, he cant afford to give the happiness i am suppose to get... he cant give the life i have now and etc... i can be sure that all of the above statements are wrong.. i am happy and thankful that Allah gave me a chance to be a whole new person.. and Allah gave me him to guide me to be better... thanks Khairul Anuar.. you are always there when i need moral support.. you helped and guide me to be a better person and have faith in me.. i am always thankful to know that i will be engaged to you soon... and i hope we'll tie the knot soon... never change.. promise that you'll stay this way forever... even if i am not meant for you... i know you are the best person i know..you have the patience like no one i ever knew before.. you have a big heart.. you are wise ...

i dont hate you guys.. i love you guys ...a lot.. but stop treating me like im an idiot... stop assuming me that i know nothing... i am not stupid.. i am not saying that i am always right.. im just human.. i make mistakes too... but, i listen....and i learn by listening.. unlike you guys... you all are just in your own tiny world ... happily believe that you know everything.. correction.. ONLY ALLAH KNOWS EVERYTHING..AND I MEAN EVERY SINGLE DETAIL IN LIFE...so stop acting like god and start to learn about life... make mistakes.. learn from it... put ur self in other people's shoes and feel how its like to be treated like an idiot.. to be treated like you dont own anything... work... earn your own money.. thats one of the way for you to learn more about life... live your own life like you are responsible to do everything just on your own and you alone... respect everyone around you, and everyone around you will respect you too.. i know my place... you with all your branded and high living will get you nowhere..because in the end... you'll be 6 feet under with nothing around you...

i dont mean to make you guys look bad.. but its clear now that you guys are just a team of de-motivated people.. every single one of you...

My E-day :)

Assalamualaikum :) good day :)

In less than two months i'll be engaged to a very loving guy.. hope he'll stay that way forever.. Everything are already prepared including my dress for that day :) yay... i definitely love it and ibu agreed to it too... mine's the white and blue colored..all the hantaran or known as gifts to my future fiance will be on its way... well, it will be a simple engagement.. but memorable insyaAllah... among my gifts for him are :

a set of men's perfume

Men's wallet

cupcakes 

A cake

fruits

sirih junjung

songkok and kain pelikat

baju melayu and samping

tafsir al quran

happy ^_^

i tried to play my role..but i feel so unneeded

Assalamualaikum... sedih memang sedih. aku cuba sedaya upaya aku untuk puaskan hati semua orang... tapi tak de sape yg menghargai aku...sometimes i felt like giving up...buang masa je buat baik... ingat kita pun tak...memang aku sedih... bila susah baru cari...

thats why i prefer to be at unisel.. lepak kat cni lagi best...tp kena balik gak and face reality.. i was trained to be a motivator since i was very young... i've been to many schools ...shared my knowledge to those who are lack of confidence and need inspiration and stuff.. etc... but how can i motivate myself trying to accept the fact i am always the type of person needed in desperate times... no more...

I just cant reconcile my mind for the time being...my desperate urge to be perfect will never have a proper solution....social pressure about my love life... i am only human... i went to periods of insanely focusing on my degree, periods of total inaction..spent my whole life here dealing with assignments ,reports ..coping with life during wild storms....

All i know for now... i started an engineering course since i was 16... sometimes i wonder why i studied engineering in the first place...

maybe i am meant to be with outsiders.. i feel more loved...

the end of my first year :)

Assalamualaikum... sometimes i wonder how time flew by so fast.. this friday will be my last paper for this semester.. still a lot of semester ahead ok.

Anyway, i am just glad its over.. this semester is by far the worst i'v been in.. well you will never know whats ahead of you ayy.. i just hope i could pass all papers.. being a degree student have been quite tough.. still.. i just had to go on with it.. my only way in becoming my father's legacy.. ha gtu.. i miss him though.. 6 years since he passed away.. two days ago was the 6th year my dad left us forever.. he was such a great man.. he inspired me to become what i am now.. he inspired me to be just like him.. how i love him... i love mummy too.. she is 51 this year.. omg.. never expect everything to move real fast.. in two months i'll be engaged.. in less than 6 months, kakak will tie the knot with her long relationship partner abg wan.. i cant believe that we are at this stage in life...

my brother have been focusing more on his music and studies while ueen is busy with her degree at uitm... though us siblings are no longer like before.. i love them to bits..

tonight is kinda peaceful.. i guess thats it for now.. time to hit the books.. wish me luck :)

Study mode.. ON!

Assalamualaikum... 3 weeks to final..and i dont know why im feeling the jitters now... for this post, im just gonna introduce just some of my books that i have to master in order to get amazing results for the final.. 

Cepat sangat masa berlalu

Assalamualaikum... Final dalam 3 minggu lagi! Okay sebab terlalu hampir final.. aku sekarang ni dalam keadaan cuba menenangkan jiwa ...and so aku main edit2 gambo.. tu je bai

Okay esok tahun 2012

Assalamualaikum and hai

Aku sebenarnya macam tak percaya dah almost habis 2011..

okay..apa yang telah aku lakukan sepanjang tahun ini??

hmm.. aku grad diploma aku..best2

then aku dapat duit hasil titik peluh aku.. pun best gak

and now aku smbung ijazah.. laik a bous

actually.. yang aku rasa paling meaningful bila Kai lamar aku

yeah.. aku happy.. one step closer to the next part of life..

aku sebenarnya ada banyak benda nak cite kat blog..but bahaya kot..

maybe one day akan ada blog anon dari aku..at least aku leh luahkan perasaan aku sedikit..haha

anyway.. 2011 overall agak best..

bulan 6 2012 aku bakal menjadi tunang org

OMG im taken

hope semua berjalan lancar.. sekarang aku sedang dalam proses untuk kuruskan badan

hope that goes well too insyaAllah..

haha..gambar aku n kai.. masih ada.. tgk lah apa aku wat nnt..hehehe

semoga ini yang terakhir insyaAllah.. <3

2012 here i come

Love what i have now

I miss you buddy(s)

Assalamualaikum and morningg

okay kenapa wajah aku tersangat gelap ketika ini.. okay, this picture was taken like 2 years ago.. i was doing my industrial training at KTM.. ala tren tu..yg lambat over sangat tu.. yeah that one

Pergh.. aku memang tak jaga langsung muka.. kawan2 aku pun kerja kat site gak.. lawo je..oh well.. biarlah..

Hah .. yg kiri tu Najihah.. @ siti salha.. dia ada dua nama.. aku suka panggil dia salha je..hehe.. geng aku masa JPK dulu.. memang banyak kenangan aku dengan dia.. nangis melalak meraung semua dengan dia.. naji ui

Behind me is Haninah aka B..hehe... classmate aku jugak macam si salha tu.. dia ni ibarat macam kaunselor peribadi bukan untuk aku je..tetapi satu kelas.. love her :)

ini pula basirah aka basir je bagi aku.. ni lah roomate aku selama setahun ok..haha.. terbaik..kitaorg memang selalu gaduh.. tumbuk2 tendang2..haha..xdelah cenggitu.. tp itulah hakikatnya.. still dia yg paling rapat and open minded.. best sangat kenal and berpeluang untuk hdup dengan dia selama setahun.. sekarang dia kat Uniten.. Oh basirku.. kapan kita akan ketemu.. rindu kau lah ..okay and again..awat muka aku macam macho.. geezz

Ni team aku masa final projek diploma dulu.. sayang mereka sangat2.. kawan aku sampai sekarang .. si man tu.. 2 dari kiri kaki kacau n kutuk..hehe.. seah yg plg kiri..abg long..hehe.. he's older than us for a year.. yg hujung kanan ..nama dia ain.. sgt cantik n lawa n pendiam..but sekali cakap..amboi...kpop, bleach sume kuar.. love her to bits..smpai sekarang cntct2.. siap plan nk g kelas jahit ok.

ni kawan kelas aku.. xdelah semua..masa diploma dulu..alkisah..ni lah time kami kene dok tepi jalan wat banci kete and tengok speed kete and wat calculation..hah pendek kabo semua ok.. tp memang best.. dpn sekali seahh seperti diperkenalkan td..belakang seah tu ain la kan..hehe..pastu aku..then haninah..yg pegang walkie talkie tu apis aka apish.. bijak weh  dia tu.. yg nmpk mata je tu idham..hehe..maap idam*bak kata miss..ok serius ketika ini aku lupa nama lect geotek aku*..best2

jujur aku katakan.. banyak konflik budak2 kelas aku dulu.. tapi itu lah yg menjadikan kenangan yang xboleh dlupakan.. sronok.. rindu saat2 itu..sekarang masing2 dah ada haluan masing..ada yg kerja.. pangkat tinggi2 lak tu.. ada jugak yg sambung belajar macam aku.. apa2 pun.. aku doakan yg terbaik untuk korang.. 

Result dah keluaq! *tet*

 

Assalamualaikum and Good Morning.. Good day.. Good everything

I don't know what went wrong.. or maybe this is a good thing.. still it could be a false alarm..

Last night, i checked my final exam result..

It was actually hard to believe.. so i refreshed and refreshed up to more than 10 times.. is this true? I manage to achieve a first degree result.. Alhamdulillah.. But then again..  i tried again few hours later and found out that the result that i witnessed was not official just yet.. Now i'm nervous all over again.. 

Its actually hard for me to believe that such prestige university is having a problem like this and this is definitely not a playing matter. I was by far super excited with my result and it turned out " UNOFFICIAL ".. -_-

Nevermind, i'll wait till 6th of December which will be the REAL date of maybe the beginning of my suffer or the beginning of a brand new happy life there.. Let's just hope and pray for the best

I am currently sitting alone head facing the balcony and such a beautiful view.. My mind is thinking about my result.. while my heart is saying that i miss someone.. I really do miss you ! :'(

Time sure flew by faster than lightning now.. My second semester will start next week.. Woah.. 3 weeks already.. and i actually have nothing to prepare myself for a brand new semester there.. Anyway.. still i am thankful because my classmates are all nice, humble, smart, friendly.. no backstabbers ok ;p.. I am definitely done with all those memories.. seriously it was not a nice picture there... 

My intentions, goals and hopes:

- maintain 3.80 +

- lose some weight before my engagement

- never miss my prayers 

- always have good intentions 

- be a more positive person

- always and always ask for my parents permission before doing anything * trust me, you'll feel calmer*

- love him <3

Once Upon of December

Dancing bears
Painted wings
Things I almost remember,
And a song someone sings
once upon a december

Someone holds me safe and warm,
horses prance through a silver storm,
Figures dancing gracefully,
across my memory,

Someone holds me safe and warm,
horses prance through a silver storm,
Figures dancing gracefully,
across my memory,

Far away, long ago
things I yern to remember
and a song someone sings
Once upon a December

And a song someone sings
Once upon a December 

emotionally disturbed

Assalamualaikum and good day.. though it's raining heavily outside.. i still wish everyone here a very good day yaw!

Okay. Sometimes, when there isn't any problem.. or there's a problem but it's not a really big deal kion of problem.. some people acts so emotionally and will start to do something stupid. Am i right? Especially women. Yes , i have to admit.. i was that kind of women.. hihihi...WAS? well sometimes am.. but you get the picture.-,-

Women more prone to emotional stress than men 'because of sensitivity to hormone'

This perhaps explains why they often take a more laid-back view of potential crises - infuriating the women in their lives in the process.

Researchers say the U.S. study could help explain the differences in the way men and women control their emotions.

Women have higher rates of depression,post-traumatic stress disorder and other anxiety problems than men.

However no one has yet been able to pinpoint a biological reason for the difference.

The study focused on a stress hormone called corticotropinreleasing factor (CRF) which helps control the body's reaction to stress.

CRF is known to play a role in human psychiatric conditions.

Study leader Dr Rita Valentino, of The Children's Hospital of Philadelphia, said: 'This is an animal study carried out on rats and we cannot say that the biological mechanism is the same in people.

'But researchers already know that CRF regulation is disrupted in stress-related psychiatric disorders, so this research may be relevant to the underlying human biology. This may help to explain why women are twice as vulnerable as men to stress-related disorders.'

In the study, brain cells of female rats were excited by doses of CRF that were too low to affect cells in male rats, the journal Molecular Psychiatry reports.

Experiments showed that the hormone bound more tightly to brain cell proteins of stressed-out female rats, making them more sensitive to its effects. The male rats, however, were able to reduce levels of the protein, stopping the hormone from binding and reducing its effects on the brain.

Since much of the previous animal research on stress used only males, important sex differences may have gone undetected, hampering the development of effective drugs for women. 

'Pharmacology researchers investigating CRF antagonists (blocking agents) as drug treatments for depression may need to take into account gender differences at the molecular level,' said Dr Valentino.

(article from here)

That's all :D

The truth about YOU!

Asslamualaikum and good day ..
Honestly, currently i'm updating my blog in a mood of rage and anger.. Yes i am definitely at a boiling point for always backing up someone i love most knowing that she is a hypocrite! I tried to hide it, but i just can't anymore..

Dear you,
You are a hypocrite.. yes you! I often lie to people just to let them know that you are okay with everything, but the fact is that you are not and always say something mean about them. You often show yourself as a perfect women in front others.. but only i know who you really are. Sometimes, i just can't go on with your hypocrisy...When people asked me about your respond towards them, I just had to put on a fake smile and said you're okay with everything because i don't want others to think negatively bad about you.. can't you see that?.. Whenever i tried to have a small conversation with you regarding this matter, you flipped out and ended up not listening to what i had to say. I kept quiet because i love you. Sometimes i'd even thought of just telling everyone the truth about you because i'm sick and tired with all of your acting and lies and hypocrisy and many other unexplainable things.. but, i just ended up telling it here as part of my therapy of letting this anger out of my body and soul. I love you.. but i can't take it anymore...I hope that you change, come to a realization and finally admit that what you are doing now is terribly wrong. Also, try to appreciate others a bit more instead of thinking negatively about them.. Hope that you are reading this and this post will be your wake up call to be better.. InsyaAllah.. 

Results

 

Assalamualaikum ;)

Salam Satu Malaysia..

Okay.. in just a few days.. my result will be out.. yay~~

Ok.. To be frank.. im not too excited about finding out my result.. IT IS MAKING ME SO NERVOUS ..

Yes, i did my best.. MY VERY BEST OK.. to be able to answer my finals smoothly.. but it turned out that all of the 'information' shared by our most beloved lecturers.. are all nothing.. nada! zerooo!

I was so frustrated.. I read everything that she had taught us during the whole semester.. but.. that was the best i could do...

I am now just hoping for something miracle to happen.. 

Still, another semester flew by like yesterday's news.. 

Degree is totally different than diploma.. life's tougher and maintaining good results will really help to keep up the grades.. 

My hope... hopes.. are to be able to achieve 1st Class Degree honors.. Contribute something there.. maybe I'll join an organization.. maybe not.. i don't know.. i just haven't decided yet..

I am definitely do not want the same incident from when i was doing my diploma to ever happen again.. ever! Two times! Two freakin times i had to repeat.. The worst.. And that is why now.. i am trying to focus more on my studies than my curricular activities.. for the time being..

give me some time to adapt myself here.. :p

And oh.. the ring in the picture.. it's not mine.. something i grabbed from google * thanks* .. I will be engaged to someone very special.. it's actually hard to believe knowing that my relationship is happily accepted by my family and him as well.. no more like 'the past'.. * how i hate it*.. *and regret*

It's almost December ! In just a month later.. It's 2012.. new year.. though we muslims already celebrated new year yesterday.. Selamat Menyambut Maal Hijrah:) * not sure how to say it in english*

I guess that's all for now:)

May Allah swt bless you all .. InsyaAllah :)

funny!

Hectic Week

Assalamualaikum.. Hai :)

Been busy.

The first day of next week kicks off my final.

Nervous+Anxious+Still struggling to memorize everything= CHAOS!

No biggy right.

Like.. It's not the first time i sit for exams and all... right?

Pray for me readers.

Thanks <3 

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