Bla bla bla...

entahlah..aku rasa macam sayang sangat pada dia..dia baik sangat..kadang2 aku rasa...layakkah aku untuk dia? aku pernah bersama orang yang sangat baik..akhirnya aku yang kecewakan dia..setiap hari dia call aku..so sweet...dia betul2 layan aku macam aku seorang wanita..dia menghormati aku..aku rasa seronok bila dapat bercakap dengan dia ...masa dia datang jumpa aku lagilah aku terharu..sanggup dia susahkan diri untuk jumpa aku dan menghormati permintaan mak aku.. baiknya dia...entahlah..betul ke aku ni...semua orang yang aku pernah berkasih sayang semua aku kata baik...biasalah orang sedang bercinta..ermm...bercinta ke?

Kadang2 aku tertanya..betul ke perasaan aku ni? kalau ikutkan pengalaman aku yang lepas..pasti aku ditinggalkan ...ditinggalkan maksud aku..si dia berubah hati...berkawan dengan perempuan lain..ye...itu lah yang sentiasa berlaku...aku sedaya upaya cuba nak selamatkan hubungan yang lepas...tapi, apa yang aku dapat...

- MERANA

-SEDIH

-SAKIT

-SUNYI!

Ya ..itu yang aku dapat hampir semua dalam hubungan cinta yang aku pernah lalui..kesian kan?

After my last boyfriend...i took caution when it comes to love... then i met him..yup..

Actually, it was never my intention to actually fall in love with him..he wanted to be just friend in in one of the *least* *i guess* popular social network on the net..we replied messages ...till dawn...then we transfered to YM... it was kinda ..more like a friendly gesture at first...

Somehow..the day i first knew him...i started thinking about him...don't really know why... well..

1. I am done with internet guys

2. i am done with men

3. I just wanna live single...better!

I was with my friends at that time... i waited for his text the whole day... but..nothing ..

It was 2 in the morning..i remembered because i thought about my past...i need someone to share with...i called him... we talked for hours ...until my credit dropped dead...rm0.00...haha...it was the night i will never ever forget because he texted me to wait...and so i waited..he went out and bought top-up..he called me that very morning...i smiled...smiled...and smiled...:)

one day...he asked me...if i wanted to be his girlfriend.. i just said yes ! why? :

1. for some reasons...i actually prayed to Allah if i should carry on being his friend...

2. I kept thinking about him * though i never knew how he looked like*

3. I felt i was being myself when i talked with him.. *though we never met yet*

And so, thats the reason i agreed to be his girl..

Okay...some of u might think...

friend 1 :" what? u accepted him?? he's from the net! how could u trust him"

friend 2 :"how can u fall for him...u don't even know how he looks!"

One day...i asked for his picture... he gave me conditions * more like options*...

1. He shall give me his picture...but..we will end up not seeing each other.

2. Wait till the day we actually meet..

i chose to meet him...but...mummy knew about this..and came up with her condition as well... it went like :

" you can meet him ina...but during his visit in kl to meet u..he must come and meet me as well...better yet...he must meet me first"

i told him...he agreed and yes...he met my mother..

he was a very gentleman.. also, he was the first guy i took home to meet my mum during our first meeting with one another.. since that day.. i knew he was not playing around with our relationship..

yes...you'll only remember nice things when ur in love... Well..though its still early for us to be thinking about 'our' future..i just hope i made the right choice..i just hope Allah give me reasons why i care about him...why i kept thinking about him...why i love him...love is a gift.. and i'm thankful..Alhamdulillah...

I know...many asked me...

person 1: "who is this guy? "

person 2 : " can i see his picture?"

person 3 : " when can we meet this guy?"

hehe..slow down...not just yet.. but one day ...that is..if Allah permits..InsyaAllah..

Also...i got an offer to further my studies at UniKL...yay...alhamdulillah...still...i'll be waiting for other offers as well*kalau dapat *...lalala